it's making me hurt so much yet unknowingly making me form a smile on my lips 'cause we've had so much memories in the past.

and i find it just so special just being with you...

although it is just a short span of time, but that isn't the point.

it's because i really do not know how to talk to you or go to you.

many times, i felt like making the first move but there's always something holding me back.

what is it? probably mixed feelings, you'd say.

and it's almost been a year now. gosh, how long is that?

i've had too many regrets and i can't forget 'em.

it's making me wonder if i should visit you? but that would take years, i guess...

or should i call you? but...

or should i move on by myself?

which is just making life even harder for me.

i need you to comfort me.

now, just where are you?

sigh, i'm tearing uncontrollably as i type this.

but i guess the important you will not be reading this.