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@ Sunday, March 21, 2010
可爱! 11:59 PM
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yayyy! my mac new layout is so pwetty! :D 6:48 PM
@ Tuesday, March 16, 2010
one minute, one second, one moment...to one year. enough said. i'm just updating to prove that i ain't dead. :) 7:30 PM
@ Saturday, February 20, 2010
dammmmmmmit. i just cant put my heart into studying for the final exams. lala, i just keep getting distracted by online shop, youtube, think about what i should do and work for the coming hols! pffffffft, i just wanna get this over and done with. frustrated 3:56 AM
@ Saturday, February 13, 2010
Lasalle :) Yea, I won't go into details... Just wanna let you know that I'm really beyond happy that i got into Lasalle! Hmm.. Nvm. 祝你们新年快乐! 5:16 PM
@ Sunday, February 7, 2010
overwhelming emotions taking over me. and it's just me surrounded by 4 walls now. i'm weeping but nobody hears me. - i feel like i've drifted away from everyone. my best friends. my sister. and you, you, and you. maybe y'all don't care at all. since there's probably no one reading this space. down, down, down, down, down, down. i just need some care and love from you. it's amusing how much i care dearly for someone but it's not returned. and i don't mean i want sth in return, but it's the reply, the answer, if you get what i mean. cuz it's just a dead connection now. it's hurts me so badly because in the end, all i got is nothing. what happened to everything we experienced previously? i miss you. FML. 10:31 PM
@ Tuesday, February 2, 2010
sometimes humans can be so contradicting to themselves. one can be so caught up with their busy-like-a-bumble-bee life that they tend to pause at that point and sacrifice others. and when they realize it, it is probably too late for regrets. then they ended up feeling nostalgic and give up. but the truth is, there is a part in them that will always miss the other. it's just worrying cuz nobody knows if the other party do. really, i think a part of me will always miss you. good night? sorry, i can't sleep well. wtf.. hello. i don't say bye. just because i hate goodbyes. but do you? can you hear me? if. well, maybe it's just me. so not looking forward to anything yet. but maybe i do. i'm just hiding. (?) so all you have to do is just realize I'm still here. haiz. must. stop. feeling. so. low. gather yourself, Xinyi! 11:39 PM
@ Monday, February 1, 2010
It's 4AM now and I can't fall asleep. The 'best' thing is I've to wake up at 6.30 for school. Pfft and no, this time I can't skip it. :( & this is ME, blogging from my BB.. 4:03 AM
@ Monday, January 11, 2010
it's evoking the memories of me and you. it's making me hurt so much yet unknowingly making me form a smile on my lips 'cause we've had so much memories in the past. and i find it just so special just being with you... although it is just a short span of time, but that isn't the point. it's because i really do not know how to talk to you or go to you. many times, i felt like making the first move but there's always something holding me back. what is it? probably mixed feelings, you'd say. and it's almost been a year now. gosh, how long is that? i've had too many regrets and i can't forget 'em. it's making me wonder if i should visit you? but that would take years, i guess... or should i call you? but... or should i move on by myself? which is just making life even harder for me. i need you to comfort me. now, just where are you? sigh, i'm tearing uncontrollably as i type this. but i guess the important you will not be reading this. 4:06 AM
@ Friday, January 1, 2010
it's a new year, 2010. it's gonna be a new start. yes, it will be. it's time to forget all unhappiness in the past year. and it's time to start a new life! let's do this together, my dear friends and family! i can already hear the sound of fireworks outside my home... my very simple aim from this year onwards: firstly, i really wanna be a happier girl... secondly, i wanna do my very best to bring happiness to everyone around me! so keep smiling, babies! you know who you are! nothing beats making yourself feel better than a simple smile. :) 12:01 AM
@ Tuesday, December 15, 2009
insomnia. 3:58 PM
@ Thursday, December 3, 2009
this puppy is so cute! makes me feel like squishing and kissing it. hahaha. :) 11:03 PM
@ Tuesday, December 1, 2009
i'm enjoying my fav peanut waffle as i'm getting drowned in the shit of food science. >:( thank god for it. :) 4:30 PM
@ Saturday, November 14, 2009
i am so screwed i cant even think straight now 9:30 PM
@ Tuesday, October 27, 2009
my decision is still unchanged. i'm still going after my dreams. i will have to stop all negative self-talking. i must constantly remind myself to tell myself i can do it. only a few more months left, i can do it. keep it up, Xinyi. i wanna say a huge thanks to the people who have been constantly supporting me, encouraging me, worrying for me, helping me and standing by my side all this while. thanks alot, really. :'( i'll never get through this without you honeybakedhams. --- 2nd week, 2nd day. i still feel fat. must. stop. must. stop. 11:00 PM
@ Saturday, October 24, 2009
why must you make life so difficult for me? yesterday you said you will stand by me. today you went to tell other people about me. what is this? i trusted you so much. you don't know how this is killing me. i feel like death is just, just so easy. i can go right there to the road and let the car hit me. or stab myself to death. but for you, i'm not gonna to. you said it will be selfish of me to die without thinking of others. i think of you and the family that's why i tried to endure my last sem in poly. but i really couldn't take it so i brought this issue up the 2nd time. do you know much it take for me to decide this issue again? i shouldn't have been here in the first place. it's nobody's fault. it's not my passion, therefore i have no obligation to go after it. now that i found my passion, isn't it logically right for me to pursue it? and now you all are discouraging me. fuck my life, seriously. why must you trample on my life? there is a limit and you are alr near to over-bursting it, i will snap right in front of you. by then, are you happy? i want to show you that i can start it all over again. yes, i used to think that age might be a problem. but no, all these are just excuses pulling me back. no matter what might put me down, i should turn and move on because it is my passion, my interests, my love. i do not want to regret any more. listen to me, i will do it. even if it fails, i will keep moving on. do you know why? because it is what i love. there is no point, no point in doing what i hate. even if it's just a few months left. i am very determined because this is what i really want to do. even if you do not support me to Laselle, I can always work. I just do not want to stay there anymore. I really do not want to stay there anymore. I just wanna leave that place of torture. allow me, will you? unless you want to see me die right in front of you... 9:42 PM
@ Friday, October 23, 2009
i just made a big decision. i thought it well enough. cuz it's the 2nd time i want to do it. and i really want to do it. i am determined about it. plz fulfill my wishes. it's either you support me to laselle or i will just work. at least i can gain experience, work on my interests wholeheartedly and earn money. thanks. ---sidenote: i ate a lot the past 5 days. let just now be the last time. good bye, food. i hate you, but i love you. 10:10 PM
@ Thursday, October 22, 2009
can you plz photoshop all bad memories away? lies, lies, and more lies. living in sin is the new thing. are lies the new trend now? i'm so tired and stressed. save me.......... i don't wanna fall back into that black hole again. Wake up, Xinyi. Stay strong, stay strong, Xinyi. I have to constantly remind myself all by myself. 5:41 PM
@ Monday, October 19, 2009
Why am I so serious in life? We should just spend our life with enjoyment! We only live once! Today's the start of school. Waking up at 9am every day is speechless. I ate alot today. Let's hope today's an exception. It'd better be. 8:00 PM
@ Sunday, October 18, 2009
Hi readers. I don't think i've ever done this before. My birthday is coming in to 2 to 3 weeks time. Ahhh... I'm not really excited for it though. Sigh, 'nuff 'bout all these nostalgia. I shall have my wish-list for my birthday listed here, just like how almost everyone else do... Haha, even when nobody reads this space. Just for the kick of it (while I secretly wish for 'em. geez!) 1) A birthday party/gathering spent with happiness with the people I love. You know who you are. ;) 2) Juicy Couture 3) New tattoos 4) Baby pink roses 5) Steve Madden booties 6) Bershka clothes 7) Lose 10kg before 2009 ends 8) Affirmation to my fashion design pieces and dreams 9) Better skin; sexier lips 10) Better nails I'll be the happiest girl alive if you ever get me one of those! Even though deep down I know it's kinda impossible for those wishes to come true cuz... I'm this pessimistic. :s 3:32 PM
@ Friday, October 9, 2009
why is it so hard to forget you? every time i try to, you managed to enter my dreams. so easily. are you reminding me not to forget you? are you telling me i can't love nobody else? it's really giving me a hard time. it's telling me that there's still hope. that we can still be together. but reality is just so harsh to us. it said no to us. what should i do? how are you? talk to me. will you? FML. cuz i'm still waiting. :( 1:01 PM

Kimmy Leong Xinyi, 061189, NYP.
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